TOM

Well I haven't really been posting as much lately SORRY! I've been a little down on myself the past couple days, it's almost TOM so all I wanna do is eat!! Lol It's so bad. Ive been exercising pretty regularly I just find it hard to push myself you know! I had a really long day so I decided to switch my rest day which is usually Sunday and take it today. Hopefully I'll get some good sleep and tomorrow is a brand new day!

Also, I forgot to do my weigh in yesterday oops! Well there was no change, but at least I didnt gain! So just a refresher here it is

Start (Feb. 09)- 286
Last week/this week - 273.6

Workin for a better week next friday!

Another thing....what happened to my food logs? Thats another thing I need to get back on track and stop letting myself give in everytime I wanna eat!! lol

Running out of titles....lol

On Biggest Loser on Tuesday Jillian gave a training tip. She said to take a deck of cards and make each suit something different (hearts is push-ups, spades is crunches etc..) then flip the cards and do the number of reps on the card. Face cards were 10 reps and the aces gave a minute of rest. I for one thought this sounded like a cool idea.

Recently I've been sticking to cardio and skipping my strength training so I'm trying to get back into it. So yesterday I try this idea. It was fun, I got a great workout, I was sweating my butt off. I made it through about 30+ cards...not bad. This morning I was regretting all the squats though! My thighs are killing me!

So needless to say I've been a slacker today :) I haven't been on the computer a lot lately, trying to keep moving you know.

This weekend me and my mom are having a garage sale, fun stuff right? lol Well Grey's is about to come on, new episode woo hoo! So I shall return tomorrow!

Here I go again...

OK as i mentioned food wasn't so good on Saturday, well it wasn't so good yesterday either! I have big issues with weekends and I really dont know why because they're just like every other day! lol Well here i start again for this week! I did my grocery shopping today and stocked up on good foods again. Yay me lol.

Another thing I forgot to do was my weight update on friday! So here it is as of friday...

Starting weight = 286
Last week = 275.2
This Week = 273.6

Down 1.6 pounds, not bad!

Alright I have nothing left for tonight so until tomorrow!

Uh Oh

So I didnt have a chance to post at all yesterday, I got online for like 5 minutes and that was it. I have my food log to post still I'll do it later though I have to find it :-)

I went to the zoo today with my daughter and one of my best friends. I was walking around for like 3 hours straight so there's my workout lol. It was Maxzi's first time at the zoo she was so excited about all the animals! Especially the monkey's lol.

Food sucked today. I stayed the night with my friend and her mom made us pancakes for breakfast. Then after we left the zoo we went to Applebee's. Now you'd think I'd be smart and order a chicken salad right? No not me. I got a bacon cheeseburger instead. Yeah that wasn't smart I know. But on the bright side Im doing really good not drinking diet coke. 3 whole days woo hoo lol. Well thats all for now.

Food Log 4/16/09

Breakfast
Bagel = 180
Cream cheese = 150

Snack
cup of grapes = 62

Lunch
Tuna, lettuce, tomatoes on whole wheat = 175
1 oz sun chips = 140

snack
banana = 105
yogurt = 80

my middle meal (lol)
Whole grain lean pocket = 260

Snack
9 Quaker mini rice snacks = 70

Dinner
Chicken = 210
1 cup veggies w/ cheese = 90

Snack
Fiber plus bar = 120
Skinny Cow Skinny dipper = 80

Calorie total = 1722 (allowed 1970)

Blah

Today has been an extremely uneventful day. Blah! I really have nothing to update so im just checking in! Had another good food day. yay! Ill be back in a little bit with the food log of course. As for exercise, I got half a mile in and my calves were killing me! I have no idea what is going on I stretch before and after so any suggestions???

Food Log 4/15/09

Breakfast
Bagel = 180
Cream cheese = 100
1/2 banana = 53

Snack
9 Quaker mini rice snacks = 70

Lunch
Turkey, cheese, lettuce, tomato, and mayo on
2 slices whole wheat bread = 225
10 whole grain sunchips = 93

Snack
1/4 cup grapes = 15

Dinner
4 oz pork chop = 130
1 cup broccoli with cheese = 95

Snack
Skinny Cow Skinny Dipper = 80
1 cup grapes = 62

Post-workout
Carb master cherry yogurt = 80

Calorie total = 1183

Back on track

Alright here I go again! After a holiday weekend (and gaining a pound!) I am back on track going full force. Hopefully this time is even better than the others. One thing I'm doing differently is I am actually trying to quit with the diet coke rather than keep putting it off. Ive done really good today although I did sleep half my day away lol. I was up until 5:45 this morning and then Max got up at 9:45 so after I fed her she bothered my mom and i snuck away to get a few more z's from 11-2. I think Im going to also start posting my food logs on here. I have a problem with this a lot! But I will be back after 9 to post from today. Later

Weightview.com

So I checked out this website Weightview.com , what it is you can upload a photo of yourself with tight clothes on, tell them how much weight you wanna lose (up to 50 lbs) and they will alter your picture to show you what you might look like after losing that weight! Cool, right? I know.

So I submitted my photo a while ago and just got it back. Its only supposed to take up to 48 hours but really it takes longer, trust me! The only problem is they altar your body and not your face. Ultimately my head looks crazy huge for my body! lol but here it is, im going to post it anyway! So thats me 50 lbs lighter :) cool right?

Candy, candy, everywhere!

So, im going about my day today and this is what im noticing....im pickin up jelly beans and eating them without even realizing it! My mom was like what are you doing? Im looking at her like what is she talking about? Then it hits me, Im eating pure sugar! Lol I was amazed at how naturally it came to me that I didnt even notice I was doing it! Crazy

Holidays

With yesterday being the first holiday since I started my journey I just realized exactly how hard they are going to be! I knew they would be difficult but man! I swear I have a food addiction. Do they make pills for that?? LOL

Anyway me and mi madre (my mom lol) cooked dinner yesterday it was fun. We made turkey, ham, potatoes, gravy, stuffing, deviled eggs, corn, broccoli, and of course i was nominated to make dessert! Which i made my favorite, banana pudding. Yummy! Now, on holidays i have a tendency to only eat breakfast and dinner. In between i just kinda munch on things. So on easter what else is there to munch on besides candy right? lol It was soooo bad. Then by the time dinner was done i was starving. I had 2 plates!! Afterwards i was so mad at myself, I hope I didnt undo my whole week with that.

Well today is a new day. Ive done good with portions for breakfast and lunch but I need to go grocery shopping still to get the foods I should be eating. I also took the day off from working out yesterday, so Im about to go really push myself to the limit right now! Gotta work off those calories!!

Feeling Good!

I just finished my workout for the day woohoo! My normal cardio is 1.5 miles in 45 minutes. Im kind of endurance traing for a 5mile im doing on May 17 so I pretty much stick to cardio. Well i just did 1.5 miles in 40 minutes which mean my endurance is getting better i can handle a faster pace. Im trying to work up by working at the same pace for a week just adding extra minutes then upping my speed the next week and slowly upping my minutes......did that make sense??

All I know is i can hop on my treadmill and stay on there a lot longer than i could last week and at a faster pace so what Im doing is working! Time for a shower while the bambino is still sleeping!

Another bad day...well a couple

Well as much as i absolutely LOVE Jillian's website i think i may have to cancel my membership after its up in may =( This is due simply to the fact that I cant afford it! I am absolutely going to miss the the great awe inspiring people i met on the message boards. They have been my rock these past couple months! I am also going to miss the compassion, and the belief i get from reading Jillians blog. Just because im not at the sight does not mean i am giving up though!

Now about my bad days..... Its easter time and what does that mean? JELLY BEANS! I told you i have 0 will power! They are so bad and loaded with sugar yet i cannot i repeat CANNOT keep my hand out of the bag! A lot of people find this disgusting but me and my mom absolutely love black jelly beans and every year we buy a bag of just black jelly beans and they're great! lol

Another thing I wanted to mention is that since I'm not going to be weighing in on the site anymore im going to weigh in every week here on my blog. Eventually I'll make a chart to track my progress but for now I'll just post it. My weigh ins will be on fridays so since I missed yesterday I'm going to start now.

My starting weight (february 2009) = 286
My weight as of April 10, 2009 = 275.2

Im so excited to see that number keep on shrinking!!

Weakness

So, right now, I want to talk about weaknesses. Yes im talking about food. As much as i know that these things are bad for me it is so difficult to get rid of them! Here is a list of some of my weaknesses.

1. Chocolate...of course what female doesn't love chocolate?
2. Ice Cream...this is big for me! ice cream is one of the greatest things ever invented...to me anyways
3. Carbs...bread in particular. Whole grains are great but im having a hard time giving up those damn breadsticks!

These things are the the things that keep throwing me off. I have like the WORST will power ever. Actually I have zero. If these things are in front of me I am going to eat them. I will sit there and look at them and tell myself, "Brittney, dont do it! Its so bad for you and you're just going to feel bad about yourself afterward!" But do I listen? Of course not and then of course I hate myself afterward. So why do I do it then? I have no idea. But its something I am so badly trying to work on!

Who Am I?

Once i had made decision to take back my life I knew I'd need help. There was no way I could do this alone. So, of course, just like with everything else, where do I turn? The internet.

After hours of searching I found Jillianmichaels.com. At this point I had never seen or heard of her. After reading up on her and her program i decided to take the 7 day free trial membership to the website. After just a few days i was hooked. Everything she said made sense. There were no crazy starvation diets that promise results without hard work. She was real. Real weight loss comes with being healthy, physically and emotionally. You have to eat right, you have to exercise, you have to dig deep and figure out who you are.

As much sense as it makes, it is not at all easy. One hour workouts 5 days a week, counting every single calorie you consume, and paying attention to what you put in your body. One of Jillians big things is DONT EAT CRAP! Lol But trust me people THIS IS TOUGH! Especially when you've grown up eating nothing but crap. Still i decided to continue my membership after the trial. The support system there is really great with all the other members but i still find it really really hard to open up and post on message boards.

From the time i joined until now i have lost 10.4 pounds. It could have been more but Im not perfect. Ive fallen off the wagon more times than i can count. The important thing is that i continue to get back on. I have my good days and i have my bad days. Its all a part of the journey and im in it for the long haul.

My Life as a Fat Kid

We all know the fat kid right? Well that kid is me. My story was a little different than those you normally hear though. I was never the kid that everyone teased. In fact, most people didn't even know i existed. That simple fact played a huge role in who i am today.

All those years I tried to stay out of the spotlight so no one would have a reason to start the teasing. The outcome? Severe anxiety. i can't go anywhere without my heart pounding in my chest and thoughts racing. Are people staring? What are they thinking? Am i crazy? Does anyone even care? Probably not, but still i cant help but freak out.

So this is where i was at 2 months ago, February 2009. A 21 year old single mother, out of work, living at home with my parents and at my highest weight ever. My entire life was completely out of control. All that was left to do was take back the reigns.